full speed ahead

i found a therapist. that i really like. and i'm actually (can't believe i'm going to say this) excited about this new endevour. i always thought therapy was so self-indulgent. that you just go on and on about your problems and the therapist says "uh huh, uh huh. and how did that make you feel?" sounded so boring. i was much happier keeping my own crap shoved deep down or bitching about my issues to my friends. but this time, the pain was so bad, i couldn't ignore it any longer and i knew it was time.

i was refered to a woman by a friend. she came highly recommended, so i set up an appointment earlier this week. i was nervous to go, not knowing anything about her or how therapy worked for that matter. but as soon as she opened the door, i knew i liked her. a good sign. she basically just wanted to get to know me a little bit to see if we were a "fit." it was hard to talk about myself at first, but once i got more comfortable i started to ramble on about this and that. and she already had some interesting insight. i immediately felt better. not that my problems were instantly solved, but just knowing that i was taking steps to dealing with all the stuff i usually choose to ignore. progress for 2006 i say! we'll see where this all goes. but i'm just happy to know that i'm taking action instead of whining about my life and feeling sorry for myself.